While my wife and lay in bed in The Malton Hotel in Killarney Ireland, near the Ring of Kerry we began to discuss our mission that we believed the Holy Spirit had put on us. The rapidly growing JP Nation did not know I was tired, felt largely alone and broken hearted with a burden that would not go away for the pain I felt for hurting people all over the world. I quickly began doubting what I believed God himself had clearly communicated as our mission.
As I lay feeling the unrest in my spirit, my wife Karen lovingly and quietly said, how much do you know about St Patrick, and I said,” simply very little.” I, of course, knew of shamrocks, parades, and Guinness as a staple of the Irish diet.
She said, “I think it is time for you to find out more about Patrick.”
The story was the true life account of St. Patrick, known worldwide as Saint of Ireland and the most recognized throughout the Catholic church. I was surprised to know that he was originally enslaved by the Irish. He spent six years learning the language, culture and understandings of the Druids.
What spoke most to my heart was the introduction to his confession. It is one of the few written accounts from St. Patrick himself. I started reading the story, I began to weep because he seems to understand how I felt at that moment and even now from time to time.
” I Patrick, a sinner, the most unlearned man, tirelessly give thanks to God, who in his divine power has shown himself to me, the least among his faithful, and an unworthy man despised by many. He bestowed upon my heart the gift of limitless faith, so that in these final days, I could carry out his divine work, and even though I have not lived a life of perfection, I am not ashamed in his sight. I give unceasing thanks to him, for he has been patient with me a careless fool, and lifted me up beyond all measure, even though I was unworthy and the least of all his servants.
I share this story to share the next one, and my memory of those moments I spent weeping for the JP Nation in Ireland. I have been very blessed recently with a lot of very hard fought, and painful success in regards to the creation of The Journey Principles Book and The Journey Principles Institute. What has happened recently is beyond all measure and worthiness of my efforts alone. It is bigger than the team helping to organize, plan and take action on this worldwide mission. All of these things are God’s and his alone. It does bless my heart to know and see that changes are being made in the lives of so many all over the world, and many find what we are about so incredibly valuable.
Recently, many have begun to show their support by praising our efforts and even members of our team including myself. We are very grateful for your support but please allow me to share my heart with you!
I think it is very important and even urgent, that I share this is a move of the Holy Spirit. It is the Holy Spirit that gives us what seems to be unlimited energy and perseverance to help so many. I do thank you so much for the comments, and recognition but please hear my humble request to give ALL Praise, Glory and attention to the Father, The Son, and the Holy Spirit.
I laid my life down at His altar after many years of feeling punished until I realized I was punishing myself and it was not of God’s design. My goal is to help those see Him and never so that those would only see me.
In my heart of hearts I have but one request ” PLEASE JUST CALL ME STEPHEN”.
I am, and forever will be the worst sinner I know. Which also is why we refuse to condemn any soul looking for rest, and restoral. Jesus gave it to me freely as He is waiting to give it freely to others. I know my personal thoughts, my evils and the items the Holy Spirit teaches me each and every day. Anything that is perceived as wisdom, instruction, grace, mercy, and selflessness are not of my spirit but His.
It breaks my heart anytime we are set before our Lord. So thank you for calling me a mentor, pastor, instructor, or wise but my wisdom is not my own, and not of any throne that occupy. I know the rest of our team feels the same way.
If you choose to follow The Journey Principles, myself or any of our staff, please know we follow Him. He deserves ALL praise, glory and recognition. Please help me, JP Nation to avoid the attack of the enemy by any praise or recognition. The easiest way to help the temptation into the sin of Pride by simply praising God and avoid praising the work of myself or our staff of the Journey Principles Institute. So many Pastors, start with a heart for God and then become successful only in finding they move away from God by believing their press. If there is no praise in the press and only in heaven, you can keep us safe as we create tools to help you in your life’s journey.
My name is Stephen, I humbly submit myself to God for service for His children. I am just a repentant sinner, saved by grace, and acting by the direction of Jesus, my Savior. We are no more and no less. Thank you for allowing me to share my heart with you.